letting go

this past week the neighborhood has been a little quieter.

the buzzing of teenagers was removed for 4 days as they left to trek.

i have watched my son grow for almost 17 years now
and with that growth my heart has been filled beyond what i ever imagined.

there really is nothing quite like the love a mother has for her children.

this child is becoming a man, and as he does so i feel those cords,
that bound us from birth, thinning.

it is hard to let him go, yet i watch with pride at the man-child he is becoming.

for 4 days he wandered the world (albeit in wyoming) and left us with
a purely estrogen filled home.

we missed the testosterone he infuses into the air.

i thought for a moment or two that these 4 days will soon turn into 2 years and wonder
HOW? mothers ever let their sons and daughters go?

and yet, the binding is fraying and soon there will be nothing left to hold him here.

do you ever wonder if you have taught enough? or loved them enough? or given them
enough experiences to live on?

i do.

thank goodness we don't have to let them go all at once, thank goodness life gives us the
passage of time so that we can acclimate.

soon the quiet will be filled with returning and all the noises that it brings.


even as i type---he is home! rejoice!


i still have a little more time before i have to let him go.